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I am a bereaved mother and wife. I began this blog to help me look for the "good things" in life after my daughter, "Babybear", died in July 2005. Three years later, her daddy, my husband, "Bear", died in November 2008. (You'll find a link to their stories on my blog) And now, as difficult as it is, I continue to look for the good things in my life as I learn my new normal with my pup, "Furrybear", at my side. And the angels on my shoulder...

Friday, December 4, 2009

It's My Birthday, And I'll Cry If I Want To.

By the time this posts, it will be my birthday.

The calendar says I'm 34 this year, but I don't believe it at all. I'm pretty sure I'm much, much, much older.

I feel like I have lots to say right now but I can't seem to come up with any coherent thoughts.

All I want to do is cry.

Not because I'm getting older.

Oh, no.

Getting older is no big deal...

if you have someone to get old with...

if you're raising a family...

if you're happy...

24 comments:

Kate said...

Happy, Happy Birthday!

April said...

Sending you Happy Birthday wishes! You're in my thoughts...

Yaya said...

Well you might have the birthday blues but I'm still gonna say it:
"Happy Birthday Ter!"

ForeverElliot'sMommy said...

My heart breaks for you!!! You have every right to cry as much as you waant to.
Happy Birthday!
HUGS
Brandy

sandy said...

Oh honey! I wish I was there to give you a big hug! I guess I'll have to give you a virtual (((hug)))! Happy Birthday:0)

Emalee said...

Happy Birthday dear sweet one!!

amber said...

happy birthday!

Kristina P. said...

I hope you can find some peace today, Ter.

Loredana said...

Hope you find a way to have a happy birthday. I know it's hard, how could you be happy when you're getting older without anyone to get old with or a family to raise...as you know, I totally understand!

Hope you find some peace today.

Jeanne said...

Ter,

Your feelings are understandable. I'm sure your birthday brings up a lot of feelings... and some of those feelings are of losses rather than celebration.

I would still like to wish you a happy birthday, though!

Jeanne

Caitlin said...

Celebrating the day of your birth! (Since "HAPPY Birthday" is not what it sounds like.) I think you are such a strong and amazing woman, whether you think you are or not. I'm sure that your loved ones wish they could be there with you. Drown your sorrows with some cake!

Jill said...

I just wanted to stop by and say hello. I just read your story and I am so sorry for your losses. It just breaks my heart.

I also wanted to say happy birthday and it is okay to cry. xo

Vickie said...

I am sorry you are not happy right now, but...I still want to wish you a Happy Birthday!!

Jodi said...

Ter, I am always here for you! Happy Birthday anyhow!

blueviolet said...

Happy Birthday! I wish I could make it just what you want but please know that you're cared about!

Just A Mom (Call me JAM for short) said...

Ter, I'm gonna wish you happier days ahead. You so deserve it...

Blessings to you on your birthday.

Mel Fraase said...

I wish I could give you hugs. Hoping for better birthdays ahead.

Stacy (the Random Cool Chick) said...

(((HUGZ!!))) Happy Birthday, Ter - keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Ann said...

Ter, you are a wonderful gift to this world. You are loved.

(hug)

I'm so happy that you are with us at the VGNO :->

~~Mel~~ said...

Happy Birthday girl!

Jenners said...

Well, I'm late for one and I know you're not happy but still ... Happy Birthday!

And please don't write off the possibility of future happiness.

Shea said...

I'm sorry I missed your birthday. Here's a late "Happy Birthday!"

Shelle said...

Happy belated birthday. I'm so sorry for what you've had to go thru. Praying you find your joy and a new love (whatever that maybe). I'm rather isolated with no car and 7 kids, so I know life can be lonely. I'm going to start afternoon tea with my neighbours...just a way to forget about myself for a while and hopefully reconnect with the way us Mums used to have it.

JulieChats said...

I hope you were able to do something special for your birthday! Sending extra hugs your way!