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About Me

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I am a bereaved mother and wife. I began this blog to help me look for the "good things" in life after my daughter, "Babybear", died in July 2005. Three years later, her daddy, my husband, "Bear", died in November 2008. (You'll find a link to their stories on my blog) And now, as difficult as it is, I continue to look for the good things in my life as I learn my new normal with my pup, "Furrybear", at my side. And the angels on my shoulder...

Friday, June 6, 2008

The Day I Fell In Love

A while ago, I told you about The Day My Dreams Came True... now, I'm going to tell you about The Day I Fell In Love.

Three years ago this week, I had the most amazing experience of seeing my unborn child on an ultrasound screen for the very first time.

I remember laying on the table while the ultrasound technician ran the wand over my belly and I was shaking because I was so excited and nervous and happy and omgthisishappeningtome!

When she finally turned the screen towards me so I could see, I burst out crying! I was so happy and I could not believe that this little baby was inside of me. ME! I never thought something so wonderful could happen to someone like me.

The surprising news was that I was already 18 weeks pregnant. I was shocked! Though, looking back, I think I knew all along, I just didn't think it could really be possible. I had always had a gut feeling that I would not be mommy. I just thought that meant I would never conceive. Would that have been easier? I'll never know.

The love I felt for this baby was instant. In fact, I loved this baby my whole life, even before she was conceived and I will love her for as long as I live. I can't wait to see her again in heaven.


Anonymous said...

That's a beautiful story, Ter. I know its not the same, but I'm sure that she is your little guardian angel and she watches over you every day.

Joc(e) said...

(((BIG HUGS))) My ultrasounds were always so amazing to me too, and so reassuring...even when I was in the hospital with complications they always told me she was doing fine, and that helped so much.

Thinking of you and your precious, darling little Babybear!

Blake and Lilly's Momma said...

Oh Ter, what a wonderful memory to have. Thank you for sharing it with us.



gretchen from lifenut said...

Such a lovely memory of seeing your sweet baby for the first time. It makes it real and even though it ended all too soon, that memory is a treasure.

And there is the wait for someday, when you'll meet again under God's gaze. Sigh.

mommy to an angel said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog and leaving a comment. I just wanted to stop by yours and tell you I'm sorry that you had to go through the horrible pain of losing a child. Thanks for sharing your story, it was very touching. I often have the same questions, would I have been better off if my angel Jesse never would have been conceived...but he has made me who I am today and despite the pain, I'm thankful for him. Sometimes the thorns in our lives make the color of God's rainbow much more beautiful!

Sarah C. said...

Ter, that is a beautiful memory. :) Thanks for sharing. And I am confident your little girl is waiting to greet you in Heaven someday. ((HUGS))

Shea said...

Thanks for sharing Ter.

Dana said...

I'm so glad you got to experience True Love! Nothing can ever take that away!