Friday, December 4, 2009

It's My Birthday, And I'll Cry If I Want To.

By the time this posts, it will be my birthday.

The calendar says I'm 34 this year, but I don't believe it at all. I'm pretty sure I'm much, much, much older.

I feel like I have lots to say right now but I can't seem to come up with any coherent thoughts.

All I want to do is cry.

Not because I'm getting older.

Oh, no.

Getting older is no big deal...

if you have someone to get old with...

if you're raising a family...

if you're happy...
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24 comments:

  1. KateDecember 4, 2009 at 1:38 AM

    Happy, Happy Birthday!

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  2. AprilDecember 4, 2009 at 5:12 AM

    Sending you Happy Birthday wishes! You're in my thoughts...

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  3. AnonymousDecember 4, 2009 at 5:29 AM

    Well you might have the birthday blues but I'm still gonna say it:
    "Happy Birthday Ter!"

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  4. ForeverElliot'sMommyDecember 4, 2009 at 5:43 AM

    My heart breaks for you!!! You have every right to cry as much as you waant to.
    Happy Birthday!
    HUGS
    Brandy

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  5. SandyDecember 4, 2009 at 7:19 AM

    Oh honey! I wish I was there to give you a big hug! I guess I'll have to give you a virtual (((hug)))! Happy Birthday:0)

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  6. AnonymousDecember 4, 2009 at 8:11 AM

    Happy Birthday dear sweet one!!

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  7. amberDecember 4, 2009 at 8:16 AM

    happy birthday!

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  8. Kristina P.December 4, 2009 at 11:03 AM

    I hope you can find some peace today, Ter.

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  9. LoredanaDecember 4, 2009 at 11:58 AM

    Hope you find a way to have a happy birthday. I know it's hard, how could you be happy when you're getting older without anyone to get old with or a family to raise...as you know, I totally understand!

    Hope you find some peace today.

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  10. JeanneDecember 4, 2009 at 2:03 PM

    Ter,

    Your feelings are understandable. I'm sure your birthday brings up a lot of feelings... and some of those feelings are of losses rather than celebration.

    I would still like to wish you a happy birthday, though!

    Jeanne

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  11. CaitlinDecember 4, 2009 at 3:00 PM

    Celebrating the day of your birth! (Since "HAPPY Birthday" is not what it sounds like.) I think you are such a strong and amazing woman, whether you think you are or not. I'm sure that your loved ones wish they could be there with you. Drown your sorrows with some cake!

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  12. JillDecember 4, 2009 at 3:04 PM

    I just wanted to stop by and say hello. I just read your story and I am so sorry for your losses. It just breaks my heart.

    I also wanted to say happy birthday and it is okay to cry. xo

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  13. VickieDecember 4, 2009 at 3:28 PM

    I am sorry you are not happy right now, but...I still want to wish you a Happy Birthday!!

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  14. JodiDecember 4, 2009 at 4:40 PM

    Ter, I am always here for you! Happy Birthday anyhow!

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  15. Liz MaysDecember 4, 2009 at 5:15 PM

    Happy Birthday! I wish I could make it just what you want but please know that you're cared about!

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  16. LeslieDecember 4, 2009 at 7:24 PM

    Ter, I'm gonna wish you happier days ahead. You so deserve it...

    Blessings to you on your birthday.

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  17. Mel FraaseDecember 4, 2009 at 8:38 PM

    I wish I could give you hugs. Hoping for better birthdays ahead.

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  18. Stacy UncorkedDecember 4, 2009 at 8:49 PM

    (((HUGZ!!))) Happy Birthday, Ter - keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  19. Ann HarrisonDecember 4, 2009 at 9:49 PM

    Ter, you are a wonderful gift to this world. You are loved.

    (hug)

    I'm so happy that you are with us at the VGNO :->

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  20. ~~Mel~~December 5, 2009 at 6:03 PM

    Happy Birthday girl!

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  21. JennersDecember 5, 2009 at 9:58 PM

    Well, I'm late for one and I know you're not happy but still ... Happy Birthday!

    And please don't write off the possibility of future happiness.

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  22. SheaDecember 7, 2009 at 10:01 AM

    I'm sorry I missed your birthday. Here's a late "Happy Birthday!"

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  23. Killara girlDecember 7, 2009 at 7:00 PM

    Happy belated birthday. I'm so sorry for what you've had to go thru. Praying you find your joy and a new love (whatever that maybe). I'm rather isolated with no car and 7 kids, so I know life can be lonely. I'm going to start afternoon tea with my neighbours...just a way to forget about myself for a while and hopefully reconnect with the way us Mums used to have it.

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  24. Julie from JulieChatsDecember 11, 2009 at 11:59 AM

    I hope you were able to do something special for your birthday! Sending extra hugs your way!

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